Welcome to Hep B community. Thank you so so much for sharing your story. I think you have articulated a lot of emotions and struggles that so many people face after their diagnosis and, by sharing your experiences, you are making others feel less alone. On behalf of those who choose not to speak (and from myself), I want to offer my deepfelt appreciation.
I’m sorry you have not had the support you need and instead was met with such stigma. I hope things will get better for you. I also hope that you can find some support from this community, many who have gone through the same thing. I myself found out I had Hep B in my teenage years, and it was a struggle to navigate the health care system to monitor it. It wasn’t until I was in my 20s that I found a specialist.
Regarding your health, it may not exactly feel like it, but you are in a good position actually.
1. You have been diagnosed: this puts you in a better place than 90% of people with Hep B, who don’t even know they have it.
2. You have been diagnosed young: this makes it likely that you don’t have much liver damage yet. Also, for people in your age bracket, it is common that you are not considered for therapy under current treatment guidelines, so you may not have missed out on anything anyway.
3. You are engaged in your Hep B status: simply by showing up here and posting, you are doing something - it is not ignoring it anymore. That is to be commended, because so many people continue to push through life actively avoiding it.
Just know, it’s never too late to begin monitoring. Even if there is liver damage, then antiviral drugs can help slow it down and even reverse it. Depending on your insurance, I think @Joan_Block mentioned that these treatments would be on the order of $30 for a 3 months supply in the US.
Nevertheless, I again hope you find some support and understanding here in our community.